Daily Journal: 29 July

Can God Trust Me?

When I do not trust someone, it fractures my framework of relationship and I set up a new framework; one that attempts to prevent being hurt again. At some point in life, I have to think through realistic expectations for relationships that have healthy boundaries, that not only safeguards my heart and mind, but also helps me have constructive and positive relationships in the future.

Proverbs 4:23 (NASB)

Watch over your heart with all diligence, for from it flow the springs of life.

With God, I need to deconstruct all of that. With God, I need to see Him as He really is – not how I’ve experienced other people.

I want to build a relationship with God that is based on true expectations concerning His nature. Expectations that assure me He is for me. He is with me through all situations. He will never leave me or forsake me. He has set His seal of ownership on me, establishes me and authenticates me. He values me and cares so much about me He goes before me and behind me, setting up a shield around me; He directs my feet. He watches over me and, in fact, never sleeps, but is always interceding with the Father on my behalf.

The quality of my assurance in God will reproduce a quality of excellence, a trust and a confidence in life that is unparalleled.

That being so, can God trust me?

Have I built up my assurance in Him to such an extent that God can trust my ability to never point the finger at Him when things are tough, accuse Him of letting me down and demand He works things out? Can He trust my ability to remain at rest in Him, to bring my prayers and petitions to Him with thanksgiving, and trust Him to work things out (Philippians 4)?

My framework is all-important. On one side, I am fearful and become angry and disillusioned because of my erroneous expectations. On the other side, I remain stable, being assured of His nature, His power, His position, His love for me. I stay within His Presence.

I believe God wants to trust me just like I can trust Him. I know He knows I will let Him down but He is merciful. He wants to trust my heart to acknowledge Him in all situations, and to lean on Him.

I want to grow in my assurance of Him; my ability to meet life with strength and grace and excellence and be rooted and grounded in His love (Ephesians 3). I want Him to trust my view of Him – that He is always trustworthy, always righteous, always just, always forgiving, always for me. My right view of God helps me to be trustworthy to God.

Proverbs 3:1-6 (AMP)

My son, do not forget my teaching, but let your heart keep my commandments; for length of days and years of life [worth living] and tranquility and prosperity [the wholeness of life’s blessings] they will add to you. Do not let mercy and kindness and truth leave you [instead let these qualities define you]; bind them [securely] around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. So find favour and high esteem in the sight of God and man. Trust in and rely confidently on the Lord with all your heart and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. In all your ways know and acknowledge and recognize Him, and He will make your paths straight and smooth [removing obstacles that block your way].