This isn’t what I thought you’d allow
I thought you’d have my back
but it feels like you didn’t
I feel let down
I don’t put my trust in man
But I do put my trust in you
And you let this happen
Not only that
It seems you orchestrated it
How do I make sense of that?
You say you make all things work together
for our good
I guess that means you’re not finished yet
You have more to teach us
But, oh, this hurts God!
Help us to learn well
You know the plans you have for us
and they’re for good and not for evil
I just ask, because I know you’re gracious
Give me glimpses of you
so I can keep believing in your promises
I don't want to give up
And I don't want to mess up again
I ask for grace to walk the humble path
of accepting when things are unacceptable to my mind
I seek Your peace to sit at the table
You’ve prepared for me
in the presence of my enemies
I call out for Your love to conquer over
the weapons formed against me and mine
because You say they will not prosper
and You tell me to love my enemies
and do good to those who persecute me
That seems almost impossible, Lord
I need Your mind and Your heart
to overwhelm my own and cover me
Turn me to Your way of thinking
that the light of Your face would shine on me
and through me
I know now I will be inconvenienced as I follow You
But my surrender is Your open door
to complete the work You started in me
because You are faithful
I won't let the devil turn my mind.
You hold me and you won't let me fall.
Thank you Lord
Record my misery; list my tears on your scroll - are they not in your record?
Then my enemies will turn back when I call for help.
By this I will know that God is for me.